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Why am I always tired...?
Well, there's a lot of answers to that...I never quite get enough sleep. When I first got into anime when I was 14, I didn't always have time so I would stay up till midnight each night watching it and have to get up at 6am the next morning. Then I would have dark rings under my eyes. Now it isn't anime that keeps me up but I just stay up for no real reason. I go to bed at 10pm at the earliest which could be ok on weekends and vacation but not school nights. Sometimes drawing or writing keeps me up half the night or even the whole night. Yesterday morning I woke up randomly at 4:30am but I couldn't sleep so I stayed up. Then that afternoon I got so tired I took a 1-hour nap (once I took a 4-hour nap) and I meant to upload a drawing but I wasn't sure I was finished, and I was just too tired that night. For all I know I might not be finished now, and I think once again I'm too tired.
Like I mentioned, I have a dilemma with Kill la Kill. We've been watching it at Anime Club, and as we get closer to Episode 16, my nerves are all the more racked. (I will note you if you want to know the full details of my reaction to Episode 16.) Tonight we watched Episodes 13 and 14. So in two weeks at the most, I'll have to see Episode 16...again. This time I was scowling the entire time Ragyo was on screen.
Every time I had to look in those psychotic eyes. Remembering Episode 16 put such a lump in my throat, the sadness pained me. It's really disturbing, to say the least. Knowing what happens doesn't make anything better. The brutality of the episode is lasting.
I have two options:
I can skip Anime Club that night. I won't have to see that again or even think about it. I won't have to see anyone else's reaction. I won't gasp, cry, or anything.
I vented most of this to my guy friend Seth, and he said he'd be there for me when the time comes. So I could lean on him during the scene. The end of the episode kinda raises your hope back up anyways.
This has been StrongButGentle